I left the nest and moved to Arizona when I was 24. At the time, I was still a Jehovah’s Witness, and had never been to Arizona. However, I always knew I wanted something different then the dysfunction I was raised in. So, in March of 2010, I took a leap and hopped on a plain with another fellow Jehovah’s Witness named Jannie. I didn’t tell a soul in my family when I made the choice to come here, as I knew I would have been talked out of it. Getting on that plane was the best decision I ever made. Second best decision getting some college under my belt. And the third, leaving the cult and organization of Jehovah’s Witnesses, and moving to Tempe, Arizona. I am safe, happy, content, and very well taken care of by the Universe. For that, I am deeply thankful and grateful for all that I have in my life. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I’ve been told I’ll go far in my life by so many. Therefore, I think my tomorrows will be just as bright as today was. Have a beautiful day and thank you for taking time out of your busy day, and reading what I have to say on my life and experiences. I hope to keep on writing, as I truly love it so very much.
Love Always, Inanna Roxanna Arnett
© February 23, 2018
The child inside of me is feeling scared, and I love that. My roommate Ella, recently said she’s moving out in May with her husband. She and her husband were gone for two days this past weekend, and I loved it SO much. With that said, I’m so happy for her, and I wish her all the best in life with her husband. Although I’m very much looking forward to them moving out, I’m also nervous as fuck to be on my own. The first time I moved out on my own was back in 2007-2008, and I fell FLAT ON MY FACE. One of my biggest fears is being homeless. I think this has to do with my dad being homeless. However, I don’t want to fall flat on my face again, so I stick with roommates. People come into our lives to help us in one way or another, and I for one, believe Ella was sent to help guide me to a new start in life and in trusting. Trusting humans, trusting myself, and helping me to see that not all humans are abusive. Ella, along with my boyfriend are the first two humans I have met that are not abusive. Before moving into the apartment I’m currently living in, I was living with an intolerable and most insufferable woman whom I will call, Mama Crumpets, and Ella was living with a horrible roommate as well. Mama Crumpets was very narcissistic, very controlling, and because I didn’t value myself, I let that woman take almost every penny I had earned. People who come from abusive upbringings have a very hard time getting out of toxic situations and I was definitely in a toxic environment. Ella’s previous roommate Lauryn, was very racist and unkind as well. Not to mention, I grew up in a very dysfunctional family and I was raised in a cult. Cults indoctrinate so much fear into the minds of their flock that I was completely terrified to leave my current situation, because I was afraid of displeasing “God”. Had I not met Ella when I did, I probably would have taken my own life sooner or later. So trusting humans has and still is a rough area for me. However, in May of 2017, I took a leap of faith and moved in with Ella. I am so thankful and grateful she came into my life. She has shown me a difference between normal and abnormal behavior, that I have never seen before meeting her. I truly love her exponentially. She is always saying, “Roxanna saved me”. However, I feel we saved each other, because she was also just as scared as I was in having roommates. It was a good thing to take a chance and trust each other, because she has added to my growth as an individual. It’s been a very long time since I’ve been “on my own”, and I’m hoping to not fall flat on my face. However, I’m also tired of moving, so I’m going to stay in this two bedroom apartment by myself and hopefully with no more roommates, because it really is time for me to be by myself, and I am so very excited about this. With that said, wish me well and have a very good night.
Inanna Roxanna Arnett
©️ February 19, 2018
My mind is feeling overwhelmed with anxiety today. The feelings came around 2:30 to 3:00 pm this afternoon. I am just sitting here with them, not trying to figure out why they’ve arrived. I accept these feelings, and love them as a welcomed guest into my home. They are here to teach me something, I am sure. Until then, I sit and wait for their lesson.
Inanna Roxanna Arnett
Copyright Friday, February 16, 2018 4:56 pm.